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Saturday, May 16, 2009


There's this...strange emptiness i feel whenever
i look at msn, or think of.. people in general. 
It's like i have to keep watching movies to get rid of that.
I don't want to keep feeling like this. 

It's like i have so many things i want to do, and say..
but i'm just not doing them. i'm like, scared, of god knows what. 
I feel miserable. 
but i'll just have to keep on smiling and laughing. 
living on temporary high. 
that's what i do best right. 

btw, my cousin, jac and i went out the other day .
it was so awesome. 
we spent like the whole day shopping and i don't have to give
a shit about what others think or what she thinks about me. 
it's such a great feeling. 
the things we talk about. 
and the problems we share. 
and we got a bracelet together, which is awesome. 
gives me a sense of belonging. 
which i need. reassurance and stuff. 
like how she tells me she loves me all the time. 
hahaha. 
it's great having someone like that man. 
Thanks jac! hahaha =) 

i'm not that miserable after all. 


11:29:00 PM